squirt | pc: matsui

[ we're at an eatery. i just want to see what matsui is eating. answer me. ]

[ after all the teams are pretty much announced... he's chilling and laying out beneath the (1) tree in the park. it's cozy. he cracks open one eye in greeting though.

hi. ]

[ we're back at uno tree. this poor, overworked tree. this time he's just sort of sitting behind it, head on his knees, exhausted.

in a muffled voice, ]

Who is it?

[ he's staring at like, the ikea meal line, not really taking in anything there or picking stuff up. just vibing. disassociating, if you will. he blinks out of it when he spots matsui. ]

...Are you finally going to eat something?

[JUST FOR HARU.......

Matsui's in one of the steerable gondolas, still close enough to the side of the canal for anyone else to board!]

Would you like to join me? I would like to test my abilities a little more.

[He's going to drown Haru in the canal.]

[ it's thursday shhh. he's going to go to the cathedral a couple hours after things settle down a bit and all of team bdsm has stopped screaming.

he hasn't actually been here yet; this place is pretty unsettling. hewwo? ]

[I'M DETERMINED TO HAVE A PC WITH HARU EVEN IF HE'S HIDING. I HOPE HE IS HIDING. Matsui isn't getting very far on his own at the moment but maybe he can literally or metaphorically run into him at some point WHERE IS HEEEEEEE starts a pc with this instead of asking you on discord]

[ cathedral... still kind of creepy here, but he expects to see bdsm team around these parts, and maybe it's strange for them to talk, but it also feels like the right thing to do.

he'll knock, loudly, echoing about the space. ]

Matsui-san? [ honorifics hours now ]

[Matsui's not in the cathedral today! IT'S A CATHOLIC MIRACLE...

He is seated in the park instead, not overly close to the lake, and appears to be looking through wildflowers for ones of a very specific shade. WHERE IS HARU ON THIS FINE DAY surely not in the lake.]

[Well.

Welcome to the CATHEDRAL!!!! Matsui is lying on one of the pews overlooking the front. Hopefully Haru is prepared to approach him because the vibes that were happening in trial are literally nothing compared to the ones happening now even though that was like being piledriven through the earth's crust. The vibes happening now are much more similar to the ones Rang had to deal with all by his lonesome on Friday: a colossal, crushing, agonizing grief. The kind of pinprick puncture that sucks all the air from the room. The kind of density of a collapsing neutron star, or the very, very bottom of the sea.

There is also an extremely strong desire to end things. Like truly there is just no nice poetic way to say that Matsui is feeling exceedingly, insanely suicidal right now i am SORRY NU.]

[ after the initial WHAT THE FUCKery wears off, he'll maintain a connection properly. ]

...Can you see our surroundings, Matsui-san?

[The next time Haru focuses on his pin after that hour is up, Matsui is there! He's like, floating a couple of feet off the ground, seemingly, and appears to be focused on something.

But then he blinks and looks down and there's Haru!]

...Hello again.

w0 saturday the first

w0 monday

w0 ; fri

w0 ; sun

w1 mon

w1 ; thurs

w1 fri

w1 ; sat

w2 tues

w2 sat cw for suicidal ideation, self-harm closes my eyes

w7 ; mon