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cringe but (swims) free. haru. ([personal profile] squirt) wrote2023-06-10 05:45 pm
sanguinary: (the groans of blood)

[personal profile] sanguinary 2023-06-29 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[HELPPPPP yeah let his squid au become real.

Matsui gives him a little look at that emotional rise, but doesn't say anything aloud. There is some faint whisper of concern, though. None Of These Kids Are Alright.

As for the question, Matsui replies very Catholicly.]


It serves as a reminder. Most of my damages occur because of mistakes I make that cost others in blood, so the least I can do is retain it for as long as possible, rather than wiping it away as though it never existed.
sanguinary: (saw fires from far away)

[personal profile] sanguinary 2023-07-01 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
[PELASE SAVE ME FROM THIS LIFE AND MAKE ME A SQUID AMEN]

I know. But I prefer to carry both.

[Sometimes the hurt in your miserable little heart just doesn't feel like enough.]
sanguinary: (to the depths)

[personal profile] sanguinary 2023-07-01 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
[YOU CAN'T KEEP ME DOWN

Matsui's emotions just remain in the same perpetual melancholic state, but there's something a little hesitant because he simply does not know how to explain Catholic guilt to this teenage normie.]


...Because all of the physical and emotional weight that I can carry is still not enough to compare to the loss of one life. The scales can't be balanced, but I would still like to do what I can.
sanguinary: (an inescapable dissociation)

[personal profile] sanguinary 2023-07-01 08:17 am (UTC)(link)
[It's a kind sentiment, and one that moves him somewhat, in a sad sort of way. Matsui thinks he suffers as much as he deserves to.

Wordlessly, he plucks up a little blue flower and reaches forward to tuck it behind Haru's ear. There's a little soft thread of gratitude.]


You have a kind heart.

[At least, the heart that he's seen so far is kind. All the more unfair that he's had to suffer through such a loss. Rin, he thinks, also had a kind heart.

Life is largely unkind, though. It seems like death is much the same.]