[ he still holds his hand fakely for a second before gently drawing it back. ]
It's fine. [ it would've been more traumatic if the previous weeks weren't such a hellscape already. he can simply escape by disassociating anyway. ] I'm ready for this to be over.
Harder. [His answer comes without pause. Though there's a little bit of something melancholic in his expression, too, he isn't about to let one person stand in the way.]
...I will be frank. I don't think that anyone will succeed in convincing her. I believe it is likely she will need to die.
...I know. [ his sadness comes into sharper relief then, having to acknowledge it aloud. ] She lied a lot. But... when we talked, about how most of us were alive when we were brought here—she seemed genuinely upset for us. Angry.
I don't think she can stand by and watch this anymore. She's strong and she'll do whatever it takes. [ and it's sad because he understands that. he gets that a reaper is someone who's won the reapers' game—someone who's already decided to take matters into their own hands. ] And that's why, even if we're friends, I think it's fair. That we also do what it takes to protect ourselves.
But yeah. Yeah! Matsui just dips his head a little, closing his eyes, quiet for a moment.]
It makes her very human, to break in this way.
[Because she's strong and she'll do whatever it takes, but she is very much a broken being, as far as he can tell. It reminds him of the man who wielded him so very long ago - that man, who had wanted to wage a war so horrific, so utterly destructive, that no other would follow it.
People often become twisted in their hurt and despair, in their fury and their exhaustion with corrupt systems.]
...Unfortunately, though it is understandable what she's fighting for, she is one person threatening forty, and thirty-someodd worlds. That is a threat that can't be allowed to persist.
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...It zoops through like before. Tch.]
Mm... [His brow furrows a little, frustrated.] --Never mind that. How are you faring? You have had a difficult few days that have now never happened.
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It's fine. [ it would've been more traumatic if the previous weeks weren't such a hellscape already. he can simply escape by disassociating anyway. ] I'm ready for this to be over.
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I am sure the same could be said for all of us... A simple conclusion would have been pleasant.
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Yeah. ...You saw us all die, right. That must've been—uh. Stressful.
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It was more than "stressful". Some of us almost died again.
[THE SHEER HEART ATTACK AND BLUE SCREENING.]
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he is idiot sandwiched in spirit, looking mildly apologetic at least. ]
...Sorry. Stuff happened fast.
[ TO SAY THE LEAST. more contritely: ]
I hadn't expected Ruby to turn on us like that.
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There is no need for you to apologize. As you know, Ruby has been planning on this for some time...
[So even if some people SPILLED THE BEANS, all it really did was hasten her desperation. He's quiet for a second after that.]
...Are you going to try talking to her, if you can?
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his expression grows a little distant, thoughtful but a little sad. resigned. ]
Matsui-san. If someone hates doing something, but makes the decision to do it anyway—do you think it's easier or harder to convince them to stop?
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Haha mood though.]
Harder. [His answer comes without pause. Though there's a little bit of something melancholic in his expression, too, he isn't about to let one person stand in the way.]
...I will be frank. I don't think that anyone will succeed in convincing her. I believe it is likely she will need to die.
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...I know. [ his sadness comes into sharper relief then, having to acknowledge it aloud. ] She lied a lot. But... when we talked, about how most of us were alive when we were brought here—she seemed genuinely upset for us. Angry.
I don't think she can stand by and watch this anymore. She's strong and she'll do whatever it takes. [ and it's sad because he understands that. he gets that a reaper is someone who's won the reapers' game—someone who's already decided to take matters into their own hands. ] And that's why, even if we're friends, I think it's fair. That we also do what it takes to protect ourselves.
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But yeah. Yeah! Matsui just dips his head a little, closing his eyes, quiet for a moment.]
It makes her very human, to break in this way.
[Because she's strong and she'll do whatever it takes, but she is very much a broken being, as far as he can tell. It reminds him of the man who wielded him so very long ago - that man, who had wanted to wage a war so horrific, so utterly destructive, that no other would follow it.
People often become twisted in their hurt and despair, in their fury and their exhaustion with corrupt systems.]
...Unfortunately, though it is understandable what she's fighting for, she is one person threatening forty, and thirty-someodd worlds. That is a threat that can't be allowed to persist.