He doesn't feel like this is necessarily enough, or okay, but like. What is he gonna do, force Haru to ask for more?? He can at least just make it clear that he would be willing to do more, if ever asked.]
...If that is what you wish.
[Haru may regret these words on Saturday but it's fine.]
[Matsui allows the silence to stretch however Haru may like it, never having been an overly-talkative person, himself.
When the question comes, he answers without pause.]
Stay as long as you would like.
[Because he can offer very little, but he can at least sit with Haru in the same way he'd offered to before, when he'd held his hand in the water and asked if he would rather be alone. The cathedral is kind to him, as vast and indifferent as it may sometimes seem.
He hopes that Haru can find some solace in it, too.]
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[ it's enough to just sit in the quiet of this chapel, or by the side of an empty pool, and not to be alone. ]
I don't want to be a crack in your steel. [ it would be really nice not to watch anyone who's been nice to him this trial die. ]
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...You will not be. Don't be concerned.
[If he hasn't already shattered before now, then the weight of one more person won't crush him, at least.]
But I will abide by what you would like to see from me.
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I just want you to be yourself.
[ matsui and buzen both have offered too much in return for what's happened, when it wasn't their fault anyway. ]
You don't need to do more than that.
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He doesn't feel like this is necessarily enough, or okay, but like. What is he gonna do, force Haru to ask for more?? He can at least just make it clear that he would be willing to do more, if ever asked.]
...If that is what you wish.
[Haru may regret these words on Saturday but it's fine.]
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haru is not a moralistic kid—he likes matsui. for better or worse, he wants to accept the beautiful, dull, or deadly parts of a blade.
it's enough that he was kind and decent in this moment, when he lost an irreplaceable friend. ]
It is.
[ he's quiet for a moment longer, exhausted of things to say. ]
You're injured. Sorry. But—could I stay a little longer? [ it feels quiet and safe, here. ]
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When the question comes, he answers without pause.]
Stay as long as you would like.
[Because he can offer very little, but he can at least sit with Haru in the same way he'd offered to before, when he'd held his hand in the water and asked if he would rather be alone. The cathedral is kind to him, as vast and indifferent as it may sometimes seem.
He hopes that Haru can find some solace in it, too.]