[ the skate park is not the place to be in lambda's mind. her vibes are she wishes this could be underwater. she's looking at the ramps critically. can that be seen if she's still wearing sunglasses? that's what vibes are for.
how fun would this be to have a skate park in the sea?
how does this translate to emotions? the vibe is mildly unsatisfactory. ]
[ that seems to be a theme: people dropping info on him because he's harmless anyway. that's fine. she's not wrong; his emotions are idly curious, but not deeply probing. ]
Nor with me, but that doesn't mean he tolerated me.
[ she may not have the best understanding of others, but the thing she can usually tell and understand the most is when people don't want her around, when they think she's being particularly callous.
[ she genuinely does not mind being alone or her loneliness. it's not something that eats away at her. however... ]
If there are people you understand more, for one reason or another, and one person's decision wiped out a number of them, wouldn't you be upset?
[ she doesn't know why d chose rin of all people, but she thinks rin was someone who made haru feel a little less alone. of course she wasn't as close to anyone in bdsm as haru was to rin, but her point still stands. ]
If someone told you it would be less cruel to Erase someone because he told her he didn't know how much longer he'd exist, wouldn't you be upset?
[ her emotions become more tumultuous, the way waves get stronger and bring ships down, as her anger builds.
but her voice stays soft, even if her words gets sharper. ]
As if mortals know how much longer they'd exist any more than spirits do. As if humans thinking that their existence has more meaning because their existence isn't measured the same way a spirit's is - isn't also saying they don't think a spirit's right to exist is lesser.
As if spirits don't have as much right to have a little more time, too.
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w1 ; sat
I don't think Ylfa should pay you. [ he's opening with this rather than the obvious elephants in the room ]
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She agreed to it.
[ she'll let him be avoidant, if he wants. ]
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I still don't think she should.
[ ylfa's money... ]
I'll give you something else.
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I'm open to negotiation.
[ what does he have that could be worth her time? ]
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Do you like art? [ not. wolf pins. but it could be a wolf pin, if she wanted. ]
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Not enough to give up $5 in this economy.
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[ it's not like she'd be paying him, honestly... ]
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Did you expect me to?
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I mean, it's not your money in the first place.
[ he sighs, dipping his feet into the water. it's too cold to swim in properly right now, but it feels nice anyway. ]
What do you need all that money for anyway...?
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We are confined by a horrible capitalist game. I don't care to follow every rule, but I don't object to collecting.
It'd be out of character for someone who owns a casino, don't you think?
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I thought you were some sort of performer...?
[ how many professions does this lady have ]
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I'm not limited to one career or occupation.
[ too many. ]
w2 ; monday
how fun would this be to have a skate park in the sea?
how does this translate to emotions? the vibe is mildly unsatisfactory. ]
.... A water skate park would be more elegant.
[ ""elegant"" ]
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Yeah.
[ what even IS a water skate park. he does have some roller blades he's lacing up anyway, just for fun. ]
You must like the water.
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I am a goddess of water.
[ as if that explains anything. ]
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Literally? [ at this point, he'd believe it ]
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Literally.
[ slight resentment at being nerfed. ]
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What's that like?
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[ she's just watching him skate around. it's not like any of the skates can fit her leggies. ]
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Why?
[ seems like a pretty sweet gig to him...? ]
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The Age of Gods is over where I'm from. Now, I have to be contracted to a human and save history and the world.
[ a nuisance!!! ]
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I don't know what that means. [ JUST.. HE DOESN'T ] But it must be a pain. Maybe being mortal isn't so bad.
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Not all mortals have it easy, but some do have it easier. Imagine if you were the lone mortal who has to support a bunch of powerful immortals.
[ haruka as the fgo protag...... hilarious. ]
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No thanks.
[ immediately. ]
Just the few of you that are here are a handful.
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Oh? A lot of them are as agreeable as Buzen, though. All you have to do is show a little good will.
[ and they'll all fall in love because that's the gacha way. ]
w2 ; sunday
it's no surprise that lambda's won't be great. her emotions are dark and vast, oppressive and unfathomable as the worst parts of the ocean.
brooding by the canals is the mood and meme of the day. ]
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though on the outside, he mostly looks dazed and tired. they can brood together. his voice is a little soft in its hoarseness. ]
...Were you close to them?
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every day, she continues to wear her sunglasses but especially today. ]
I wouldn't call it a closeness. I'd call it a preference.
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So you... preferred them to other people here? That sounds about the same.
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It's not the same. I am sure Matsui wouldn't choose my company.
[ she doesn't make it easy for anyone to endure her presence. ]
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[ lambda is a diva. but matsui seemed pretty patient, to him. she seems upset, one way or another. ]
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I have purposefully said things that would challenge him and his comfort.
[ she does this with everyone. ]
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If anyone could handle that, I think Matsui-san could.
[ he's pretty patient, all things considered. ]
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[ lambda was the person matsui disliked the most here once upon a time. no longer, but she did hold that trophy for a time. ]
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[ and he's also a frustrating person to be around? but lambda is probably more deliberate about it. ]
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[ she may not have the best understanding of others, but the thing she can usually tell and understand the most is when people don't want her around, when they think she's being particularly callous.
haru's just a weirdo. lambda's a monster. ]
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he just looks out to the water instead. ]
Then what has you so upset?
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[ she genuinely does not mind being alone or her loneliness. it's not something that eats away at her. however... ]
If there are people you understand more, for one reason or another, and one person's decision wiped out a number of them, wouldn't you be upset?
[ she doesn't know why d chose rin of all people, but she thinks rin was someone who made haru feel a little less alone. of course she wasn't as close to anyone in bdsm as haru was to rin, but her point still stands. ]
If someone told you it would be less cruel to Erase someone because he told her he didn't know how much longer he'd exist, wouldn't you be upset?
[ her emotions become more tumultuous, the way waves get stronger and bring ships down, as her anger builds.
but her voice stays soft, even if her words gets sharper. ]
As if mortals know how much longer they'd exist any more than spirits do. As if humans thinking that their existence has more meaning because their existence isn't measured the same way a spirit's is - isn't also saying they don't think a spirit's right to exist is lesser.
As if spirits don't have as much right to have a little more time, too.
w7 ; mon
it doesn't really matter, but he's at the gym. ]
...Do you guys have a pool?
[ important questions even though he should probably start with the elephant of how ylfa killed her first. ]
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Do you think Rin could survive without one?
[ important questions are answered with equally important questions. ]
I thought he would've told you already.
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[ haru sending the shortest texts to everyone that he could manage ]
At least you guys could swim...
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He's a great swimmer.
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You can say that. You should ask him what he worried about. He worries a lot more than I do.