[ he doesn't know a lot of things about most people here, even if the game isn't so different. when you know someone for two months in a hell scenario, bonds form, though. ]
I'm okay. [ or not freaking out, at least. ] At least we've all done it before.
I know some of them trusted each other. But I can imagine there were also probably some weird feelings? [ npc to pc communication... ] But even not being close, it's more familiar than most of us are with each other.
[ your turbobonds... ]
But I'm glad. It'll be fine. [ he hopes. which is why he sort of frowns to himself. ] I'm used to the deaths happening each week, but I'm gonna be honest trials always looked a little insane from the outside.
[ he thinks about sqq and nods. sometimes you are from the same game but it is not exactly a comfy relationship. but also, ]
They are insane.
[ he does not really envy all the people going into trial for like the first time. ]
They'll be harder because people are looking after each other. For instance, you lied for me once. [ which he appreciates, but it's the easiest example. ]
[ this really is the three teens vs sqq and that's so funny. ]
That really doesn't make me feel better, Haru, thanks. [ it's light though because he is aware that it's going to go this way. but he raises both eyebrows to that. ]
Did people actually believe me? [ he doesn't even question why he might've lied because unfortunately this is a great example. jonas is aware he'd lie to cover a friend if it was for something necessary. ] It turns into another observation game. It's not just about knowing a culprit well, but a culprit's ground of friends.
[ sqq i'm sorry for ruining your life last time but we are just cute teens?
he looks very privately amused at the sarcasm, but then his mouth quirks up into a helpless smile anyway. ]
...I got caught, but it wasn't your fault. We didn't do a good job covering our tracks. [ jonas could look away from ice cream but it doesn't stop the ice cream from being the worst lie ever to begin with. ] But, yeah. That's it. There's a lot of people with friends now. They'll lie for each other. Maybe kill together.
It's part of the game.
[ he doesn't sound resentful of it, but he hoped that they could all put this behind them. such is life. ]
[ he doesn't look that happy to hear that, but he understands it. ]
From what Kazuki told me, your team was carrying most of our asses all the way to the end. [ so he can't really blame them for falling through the cracks. ]
It's a part of the game, and with a bunch of new strangers we're bound to make more alliances that people can't predict. Not to mention some that might not be the same as before. [ people who don't remember each other, or otherwise. ] But don't worry, I'd probably lie for you again if I had to.
...I know why he thinks that. But it's not true. We were more selfish than Hoshino says. The only reason our team could make it to the end was because everyone decided to entrust us with the points.
[ otherwise, someone could've just killed haru and that'd be that. he knows the goodness of the other teams was the only reason things turned out the way they did. having cleared that up, ]
I'd cover for you, because I don't think you'd kill Rin. [ he doesn't bother joking. he knows himself. ] You're not the Jonas I know, but I think I can trust you. What I want is for none of that to matter.
[ he doesn't want any of this discussion to be relevant, because he doesn't want them to kill, or die. it's just... that it probably will matter. ]
[ he's kind of glad to hear this, because up until this point kazuki really was the only one to explain much about homo. ]
... sounds like a lot of pressure though. Just throwing that out there. [ but that's all he says on the matter before he raises an eyebrow. ]
I have no interest in killing Rin, so you're right. If it helps, I don't even think I'm the Jonas I know right now, but if I can be trustworthy to people here... I'm okay. I can work with that. It means maybe we'll find another solution if we're working things out.
[ he'd love to not consider more people killing and dying, but thems the breaks and he knows it. ]
[ that is a very personal question, thank you haru. ]
Yes and no? It wasn't like I was entirely myself my entire project. And even before I died it wasn't like a lot of people liked me anymore either. [ so he shrugs. ] Being myself and being what people needed at the time and being God is still something I'm working on.
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[ he doesn't know a lot of things about most people here, even if the game isn't so different. when you know someone for two months in a hell scenario, bonds form, though. ]
I'm okay. [ or not freaking out, at least. ] At least we've all done it before.
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[ your turbobonds... ]
But I'm glad. It'll be fine. [ he hopes. which is why he sort of frowns to himself. ] I'm used to the deaths happening each week, but I'm gonna be honest trials always looked a little insane from the outside.
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They are insane.
[ he does not really envy all the people going into trial for like the first time. ]
They'll be harder because people are looking after each other. For instance, you lied for me once. [ which he appreciates, but it's the easiest example. ]
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That really doesn't make me feel better, Haru, thanks. [ it's light though because he is aware that it's going to go this way. but he raises both eyebrows to that. ]
Did people actually believe me? [ he doesn't even question why he might've lied because unfortunately this is a great example. jonas is aware he'd lie to cover a friend if it was for something necessary. ] It turns into another observation game. It's not just about knowing a culprit well, but a culprit's ground of friends.
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he looks very privately amused at the sarcasm, but then his mouth quirks up into a helpless smile anyway. ]
...I got caught, but it wasn't your fault. We didn't do a good job covering our tracks. [ jonas could look away from ice cream but it doesn't stop the ice cream from being the worst lie ever to begin with. ] But, yeah. That's it. There's a lot of people with friends now. They'll lie for each other. Maybe kill together.
It's part of the game.
[ he doesn't sound resentful of it, but he hoped that they could all put this behind them. such is life. ]
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From what Kazuki told me, your team was carrying most of our asses all the way to the end. [ so he can't really blame them for falling through the cracks. ]
It's a part of the game, and with a bunch of new strangers we're bound to make more alliances that people can't predict. Not to mention some that might not be the same as before. [ people who don't remember each other, or otherwise. ] But don't worry, I'd probably lie for you again if I had to.
[ sort of a joke but also... yeah. ]
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...I know why he thinks that. But it's not true. We were more selfish than Hoshino says. The only reason our team could make it to the end was because everyone decided to entrust us with the points.
[ otherwise, someone could've just killed haru and that'd be that. he knows the goodness of the other teams was the only reason things turned out the way they did. having cleared that up, ]
I'd cover for you, because I don't think you'd kill Rin. [ he doesn't bother joking. he knows himself. ] You're not the Jonas I know, but I think I can trust you. What I want is for none of that to matter.
[ he doesn't want any of this discussion to be relevant, because he doesn't want them to kill, or die. it's just... that it probably will matter. ]
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... sounds like a lot of pressure though. Just throwing that out there. [ but that's all he says on the matter before he raises an eyebrow. ]
I have no interest in killing Rin, so you're right. If it helps, I don't even think I'm the Jonas I know right now, but if I can be trustworthy to people here... I'm okay. I can work with that. It means maybe we'll find another solution if we're working things out.
[ he'd love to not consider more people killing and dying, but thems the breaks and he knows it. ]
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he'll also set aside murder talk for a second for something more personal. ]
Is it that hard to be yourself?
[ says haru, who has unabashedly been... haru forever. ]
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Yes and no? It wasn't like I was entirely myself my entire project. And even before I died it wasn't like a lot of people liked me anymore either. [ so he shrugs. ] Being myself and being what people needed at the time and being God is still something I'm working on.