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[squirt]

[ she decides to!!! ]

I meant about asking if you did it. Or... guessing why. [ whichever ]

[bxkautx]

Nothing wrong with trying to figure things out...

[squirt]

There is if I hurt your feelings...?

[ why is he explaining why he should be apologizing this is obvious ]

[bxkautx]

You didn't mean to. So it doesn't count.

[squirt]

...I think how you feel is more important than what my intentions were.

[bxkautx]

... It's really fine. I don't expect anyone to understand.

[squirt]

I'd like to.

[ understand, that is. ]

[bxkautx]

I... know that people don't know me very well. And I barely know them either.

But assumptions can get tiring.

[squirt]

[ he nods ]

What do we get wrong most?

[bxkautx]

It's... scattered. And it's hard to understand, so I'm not—blaming you or anyone else.

[ anyway sorry she's a nightmare but she does just kind of shrug like that's the end of the explanation. sometimes it's less about it not being specifically right and more that she just doesn't like there being a guess at all. ]

[squirt]

[ it's okay to not enjoy when people have expectations one way or another. his thoughts turn a bit squiggly, pondersome. ]

That works. I'd rather you tell me how you're feeling and what you want than presuming stuff anyway.

[bxkautx]

Mm.

... I just get bored sometimes.

[squirt]

[ settles in against one of the spaceship walls, listening. ]

Bored?

[bxkautx]

Like... a lot of stuff is missing. And normally my thoughts would go there, but it can't because it's gone, so I have to find something else to focus on.

Time makes parts of you decay. Helps steer the way you think, a little.

[squirt]

[ it's not that he can perfectly understand, but he thinks about the series of cyoa loops he was on. ]

I can see how it wears parts of you away.

It's not as easy as replacing what's gone with something new, is it...?

[bxkautx]

Nah. Think it's just... hollow space forever.