[it can happen to anyone. she picks a little at her sleeves, though, because this is really unfair and she didn't intend to tell anyone about this.]
There's something very bad inside me and it was trying to get out and hurt people. I didn't want to let it. So I was just trying to, like, keep it inside me.
[ this seems like a very pointed thing to happen to ylfa specifically, like thursdays might be individualized torture scenarios. he stops scrubbing blood for a second. ]
You don't have to do that here. I'm not afraid when it's you. [ ...but it's softly said, because it makes sense that she'd try to contain this terrible thing all on her own. ]
...It was a carnival. We went through attractions, and it was... bad. Then there was a roller coaster. That's how we got back.
[ this is not insanely informative but it's whatever; he looks a little more disturbed now that he's actually talking about it, scratching at his neck lightly. ]
[it isn't insanely informative, but she'll give him a pass on that. the fact that he said "it was bad" is probably more informative than anything else. her head can fill in the kind of attractions there would be. just cruel things to torture them.]
It was just - Amelia and I went to school, and we had a club where we baked cookies. And... [she cuts herself off a little.] Someone important to me was also there and joined the club, but only wanted to hang out with Amelia, and it made me feel really, really bad. Which sounds so stupid when I say it like that, but it was really bad. They were acting like I wasn't real.
...I think it was someone's memories, but I don't want to say who. [she is wearing monika's school uniform rn.]
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...I did all the scratches to myself.
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Why?
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[ he's looking at her expectantly. ]
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There's something very bad inside me and it was trying to get out and hurt people. I didn't want to let it. So I was just trying to, like, keep it inside me.
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...Is that why you were trying to keep your distance?
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I keep making bad things happen.
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You don't have to do that here. I'm not afraid when it's you. [ ...but it's softly said, because it makes sense that she'd try to contain this terrible thing all on her own. ]
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You have to tell me more about yours now.
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...It was a carnival. We went through attractions, and it was... bad. Then there was a roller coaster. That's how we got back.
[ this is not insanely informative but it's whatever; he looks a little more disturbed now that he's actually talking about it, scratching at his neck lightly. ]
I don't think it had a point besides to hurt us.
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It was just - Amelia and I went to school, and we had a club where we baked cookies. And... [she cuts herself off a little.] Someone important to me was also there and joined the club, but only wanted to hang out with Amelia, and it made me feel really, really bad. Which sounds so stupid when I say it like that, but it was really bad. They were acting like I wasn't real.
...I think it was someone's memories, but I don't want to say who. [she is wearing monika's school uniform rn.]