[ today is enough? he touches the back of his neck, emotions already primed with guilt and frustration. ]
...I thought Buzen's killer was probably like Count D. Just... trying to survive. But I still wondered if—going after him was strategic. Because it could kill their whole team.
[ he wasn't the only one, but it'd crossed his mind. ]
I think...it's a little like something Gerard said one time. That we become the people we need to be to survive in this world. To survive in this place, it...makes sense to trust people less, and to try to think about the things they might do.
[ there's middle management out there in this hellscape? somehow, he'd believe it. ]
There might be a hierarchy. Ruby said she'd check if it really affects us. ...Even if it doesn't, that doesn't feel better. [ it just means another game down the line will be affected instead. ]
Well, she might might be wrong. I said she was nice, not that she knows everything. But she doesn't even know the wolf, even though he's actually the one in charge of death.
You're right! They keep mentioning a last game...but Aika didn't know why they were trying to do the same sort of game. It's not for entertainment, or anything.
Ruby wouldn't tell me who else we could turn to. But there must be someone. [ whether it's the reapers themselves, or another entity out there. or??? whoever else. ] And the last game... maybe if we learn more about it, we can end this one. Or at least learn what they're trying to do.
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[ today is enough? he touches the back of his neck, emotions already primed with guilt and frustration. ]
...I thought Buzen's killer was probably like Count D. Just... trying to survive. But I still wondered if—going after him was strategic. Because it could kill their whole team.
[ he wasn't the only one, but it'd crossed his mind. ]
I just didn't expect to start thinking that way.
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Oh. I don't think you're awful, Haru.
[definitely not for that.]
I think...it's a little like something Gerard said one time. That we become the people we need to be to survive in this world. To survive in this place, it...makes sense to trust people less, and to try to think about the things they might do.
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...Yeah. Maybe it's naive not to change.
[ his feelings turn conflicted, troubled. ]
The more we learn, the harder it's gotten to know what to do.
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But I do think the bad ones aren't here, they're the ones in charge.
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[ a bubble of very genuine resentment ]
Ruby seemed surprised. Her bosses didn't mention the "world destroying" part.
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[so she wasn't sure what to make of that.]
But maybe there's a higher boss?
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[ there's middle management out there in this hellscape? somehow, he'd believe it. ]
There might be a hierarchy. Ruby said she'd check if it really affects us. ...Even if it doesn't, that doesn't feel better. [ it just means another game down the line will be affected instead. ]
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It still means they're horrible. But Ruby isn't horrible.
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...She's fine.
[ she's OKAY he GUESSES ]
But she did think there was nothing we could do about it. Not alone.
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She might know more than us, but not everything.
But she said we couldn't do it by ourselves. That means there's people who must be able to help us.
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You're right! They keep mentioning a last game...but Aika didn't know why they were trying to do the same sort of game. It's not for entertainment, or anything.
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Ruby wouldn't tell me who else we could turn to. But there must be someone. [ whether it's the reapers themselves, or another entity out there. or??? whoever else. ] And the last game... maybe if we learn more about it, we can end this one. Or at least learn what they're trying to do.
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Yeah! We could make some allies and take down the system.