[ eh its fine. his love life is so tragic and horrible you can't NOT hit a landmine. ]
I did still love him. And in many ways I always will. But some part of me was angry with him, and he did not know how to see that.
[ not to get too in the weeds because this is about rin being a Teen Boyfriend who is doing his best and not anders' no good very bad experiences but ]
Wis'adel claimed to love me as well. At least, some version of her. And would also choose my death for the gain of others. It isn't something I condemn either of them for, but it is ... not something I think that I can live with, in myself.
Rin perhaps did not say the exact correct words, but he did try and sacrifice himself for you. Gave up his prize for you. I think his actions speak quite loudly. He loves you a great deal.
[ okay well more seriously. it's incomparable—rin and haru are teenagers in their first relationship, making stumbling errors, and anders has a cosmic horror love life. he can't wrap his mind around it? he's going to stop being mad at rin in like, an evening, tops.
he starts again, a little halting. ]
I mean—I don't know... anything about this. [ he knows love, not romance ] But not wanting someone who's willing to kill you seems pretty basic. You matter to me, but not enough that I'd choose you...? Anyone should see how that's hurtful.
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He killed you, but you still loved him...?
[ maybe it's like the executions here, where their hands are forced. something that you can put in the past quickly enough. ]
Or... maybe you didn't love him that way anymore, by the time he confessed?
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I did still love him. And in many ways I always will. But some part of me was angry with him, and he did not know how to see that.
[ not to get too in the weeds because this is about rin being a Teen Boyfriend who is doing his best and not anders' no good very bad experiences but ]
Wis'adel claimed to love me as well. At least, some version of her. And would also choose my death for the gain of others. It isn't something I condemn either of them for, but it is ... not something I think that I can live with, in myself.
Rin perhaps did not say the exact correct words, but he did try and sacrifice himself for you. Gave up his prize for you. I think his actions speak quite loudly. He loves you a great deal.
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...I think you can condemn them a little...?
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he starts again, a little halting. ]
I mean—I don't know... anything about this. [ he knows love, not romance ] But not wanting someone who's willing to kill you seems pretty basic. You matter to me, but not enough that I'd choose you...? Anyone should see how that's hurtful.