[ oh this sucks a lot. he's never had to see things like abuse framed as care or acceptance, or anything like the truly gruesome, grisly details of his "transformation."
he flinches briefly at the last gunshot before they're back. ]
[ livio was rooted to the spot as this played out, clutching his head with both hands like he did when he was struggling to keep it together during ringate. uneven breathing, swaying on his feet, he did not want to remember this, or ever think about this again, and seeing it is basically reliving it and uh. give him a second here to get his shit together in front of haru ]
[ this also sucks a lot. he's terrible at reaching out and stabilizing someone, more prone to awkwardly hovering than anything else. especially in a case like this, where livio is really clearly going through it, and he's torn on whether it's better to touch him or not.
but given how bad the memory is, he chances it. it's feather light, gentle and tentative when he tries to reach for his arm, repeating: ] Livio.
[ before haru can reach his arm, livio's other hand snaps out super quickly to grab onto his hand -- but it's about that second that he realizes it's haru, so he just kind of. freezes mid-grab and retracts his hand, still breathing with that weird pattern ]
[ but he looks more lucid now ]
Shit. Fuck!
[ very eloquent ]
Sorry. Haru... Haru, right?
[ he didn't forget who he is he just needs to ground himself ]
[ he doesn't flinch or startle when livio grabs at him, but he does hesitate a moment before letting the trajectory of his hand finish, touching down very lightly on his arm. ]
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he flinches briefly at the last gunshot before they're back. ]
...Livio.
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[ the main reason he's not fleeing immediately ]
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but given how bad the memory is, he chances it. it's feather light, gentle and tentative when he tries to reach for his arm, repeating: ] Livio.
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[ but he looks more lucid now ]
Shit. Fuck!
[ very eloquent ]
Sorry. Haru... Haru, right?
[ he didn't forget who he is he just needs to ground himself ]
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Yeah. It's me. [ he can give him a minute. ]
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Shit, you shouldn't have.....
[ now he'll back away, anticipating a bad reaction. also as if backing away will somehow erase that haru just had to live through that memory ]