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[camena]

[ she tries for a smile, but it's weak. strategy is... a little hard to keep talking about right now, so, instead: ]

Matsui is wrong about that. People can come back from a lot.

[squirt]

[ he sighs, looking up at nothing in particular. ]

You think so? It's been hard, figuring out what I'm willing to live with doing.

[camena]

I wish you wouldn't say that.

[ just announcing that very plainly. it's fine. ]

But, yeah. It is hard. I'll give you that much...

[squirt]

[ listen he just helped kill a dude so..... ]

Yeah. ...It'd be nice if anything here were a little easier.

[camena]

[ sometimes you kill a man, what, it's fine. >:( ]

But it's not. So it's stupid for anyone to act like it's some... black and white, good and bad, evil that you guys committed.

[squirt]

[ team tbd like these are our blorbos and they can kill a man as a treat ]

...Some people are righteous like that. [ he doesn't really get it himself. ] But it's also their hurt talking. Maybe they'll understand when it's their friends in trouble.

[ haru's not really like, a bitter person, so this is not said with any malice. ]

[camena]

[ she chews her lip, thinking for a second. ]

I'm still mad. ... But I'd get just as righteous about it if it was Jonas or someone from my team. I know that.

... But I'm still mad. [ she doesn't have to keep saying that. ]

[squirt]

[ it's kind of nice to know that she is indeed mad ]

Honestly. I'm a little mad too. [ even if he has no right to be. even if he's been trying very hard to be empathetic, and does feel guilty. there's no way he can accept this with absolute grace. ] There's no reasoning with feelings.

[ ... ] I appreciate it. That you're angry for us. It means a lot, Alex.

[camena]

You don't seem all that mad.

[ which she doesn't mean as if she's denying it, just that he's good at covering it up. staying calm. she's not as good at that. ]