pc: alex

[squirt]

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[camena]

I don't know.

Because he was sweet. Because he wasn't used to fighting. Because whoever did this is cruel.

[squirt]

[ it takes a minute again for him to respond. ]

yeah
didnt want to think of him that way
but i shouldve realized he was an easy target

[camena]

A lot of us are.

It's easy to say "nothing's going to happen," but that doesn't actually stop it.
Sorry.

I don't know if it should have been me to find him. I wish I could have done more.

[squirt]

part of me thought that wed be okay if we didnt hurt anyone
but looks none of us are safe either

[ it wasn't logical, but he'd thought that tbd would be okay, too. they're young—they don't seem to mean any harm. they'd been nice.

it's a rude awakening. ]

you found him?

[camena]

Yeah...

[ she keeps insisting that not only are they going to be okay, but no one else is going to erase anyone. she keeps insisting that, as a group, they can all be better than this. second time being proven wrong. it's starting to stick. ]

Sorry. I couldn't do anything.

[squirt]

[ in retrospect—too late—it feels naive. no one has to erase anyone—so they won't.

it only takes a day to make that seem unbelievable. ]

dont apologize
and dont punish yourself

you were nice to him when it mattered [ when he was alive ]

[camena]

I would have liked to get to know him better.

[squirt]

[ ... ] really?
hes a pain

[camena]

So is my best friend. I'm used to it.

[squirt]

is that jonas

[camena]

Jonas isn't my best friend.

And he's not a pain either.