Even though it's hard for you to get your head around? [ ... ] It's probably a good thing it is like that for you. Taking a life isn't easy. It shouldn't be.
[ he nods. even if he doesn't entirely find it okay, and doesn't completely get it, he understands. or is trying really hard to. it's just something to get used to here—something to come to grips with.
even so, he idly grabs the fabric of his shirt, an unusually nervous gesture on his part. it's a balance. he wants to get used to this; he doesn't ever want to find it an easy thing to watch someone die. quietly, ]
[ he believes that. he can't imagine killing someone and living the same way after. he has empathy; he imagines most everyone here does. ]
I'm glad to know that about you. [ even if the memory was to reveal that he's a killer, it feels important to understand that he doesn't take joy from it. ]
d'ya ever feel like you're just. intruding on something really personal by existing? in the same space as a memshare? because boy, shu feels like that now. ]
[ yes i remember it being a very straight series my favourite part was when haru went “it’s heterosexual time” and then he heterosexualed all over the place. ]
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No I think that moment has passed. You and Rin had some problems to work out, huh?
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even so, he idly grabs the fabric of his shirt, an unusually nervous gesture on his part. it's a balance. he wants to get used to this; he doesn't ever want to find it an easy thing to watch someone die. quietly, ]
Is it easy for you?
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[ it shouldn't be and it never will be if he has a say in it. ]
There's something that clings to you, when you kill someone. It latches on and it never lets go. You carry that forever.
It isn't easy, and it shouldn't be easy either.
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[ he believes that. he can't imagine killing someone and living the same way after. he has empathy; he imagines most everyone here does. ]
I'm glad to know that about you. [ even if the memory was to reveal that he's a killer, it feels important to understand that he doesn't take joy from it. ]
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Ignorance is sometimes bliss. But it's a weird thing to focus on when we're all already dead, I guess.
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[ unfortunately, shu knows that the whole ignorance is bliss thing is beyond them at this point.
that said, another piggy runs by and the memory that plays out is really very simple. his life was so simple before this? ]
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d'ya ever feel like you're just. intruding on something really personal by existing? in the same space as a memshare? because boy, shu feels like that now. ]
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[ awkward too given rin's frickin' double dead. ]
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he rubs his temples for a second. ]
...Can we go back to watching your thing.
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No I think that moment has passed. You and Rin had some problems to work out, huh?