[ haru also doesn't like it. he hates talking like this. he just wants to submerge himself in the ocean and become foam. the only comfort to draw from any of this is hearing anyone say those words: it's not okay. it's not okay that rin is gone.
none of this is remotely okay. he sighs, drained. the stupid nausea everyone contracted kicks in again. ]
Winning means that everyone else loses. Including you.
I'm going to be honest with you - I want everyone to win. I know we've been told a few times it's not possible, but I guess that makes me an irrational guy. I always want the impossible. So I'll keep looking until I can't anymore.
Short of that though... I want Froggystyle to win - at least in the sense that I'd choose your team over mine. I'll do everything I can to support Rang-san, but... I think Matsu and I already know how it's gonna end for us.
But that's okay. Blades are always meant to break before the hand that holds it.
...I don't want to win. If everyone wins, that's different. [ he kind of doesn't believe that'll happen anymore, but of course it's a nice idea. the ideal outcome. ] Seven weeks is enough for me.
[ if anyone deserved a second chance at life, it's rin. haru is just—a person. a normal human who'd have been okay fading away. ]
But I don't want anyone to hurt my team anymore, either. [ so he's conflicted. everything buzen says makes him uncertain, and he looks at him, afraid, determined, and all the little steps inbetween. ] Or people like you, and Matsui-san.
[ even if they're ready to break early, if it comes to that, it's too sad to allow. ]
[and buzen will step forward then - now just bringing his arms around haru to encourage him closer for a hug. it's gentle, loose enough for him to be able to wiggle out if he wants but.
a hug.]
It's okay if you're overwhelmed. It must hurt a lot, and be hard to think about. You don't need to find all your answers right away.
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none of this is remotely okay. he sighs, drained. the stupid nausea everyone contracted kicks in again. ]
Winning means that everyone else loses. Including you.
[ he's sure buzen knows that. ]
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[he confirms it, and he nods.]
I'm going to be honest with you - I want everyone to win. I know we've been told a few times it's not possible, but I guess that makes me an irrational guy. I always want the impossible. So I'll keep looking until I can't anymore.
Short of that though... I want Froggystyle to win - at least in the sense that I'd choose your team over mine. I'll do everything I can to support Rang-san, but... I think Matsu and I already know how it's gonna end for us.
But that's okay. Blades are always meant to break before the hand that holds it.
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[ if anyone deserved a second chance at life, it's rin. haru is just—a person. a normal human who'd have been okay fading away. ]
But I don't want anyone to hurt my team anymore, either. [ so he's conflicted. everything buzen says makes him uncertain, and he looks at him, afraid, determined, and all the little steps inbetween. ] Or people like you, and Matsui-san.
[ even if they're ready to break early, if it comes to that, it's too sad to allow. ]
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Is it okay if I touch you, Haru-san?
[he'd asked as much a little bit earlier in trial, but he wants to make sure he has permission again now]
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...It's okay.
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[and buzen will step forward then - now just bringing his arms around haru to encourage him closer for a hug. it's gentle, loose enough for him to be able to wiggle out if he wants but.
a hug.]
It's okay if you're overwhelmed. It must hurt a lot, and be hard to think about. You don't need to find all your answers right away.