[ from swim teen to unhinged killer....... no he is a normal person with slightly above average empathy. but he can also be a little bitch while wracked with guilt. the duality of man.
a sort of exasperated chiding, ]
I've always been myself. Don't bully Rin. Don't kill people.
[ says haru who has a higher body count this game and also some fondness for rang, despite being a stinker. ]
I had everyone with me. [he will die angry that they got wiped in the first place, but] Even though I was furious, I'm not so blind that I can't see that I was also lucky.
It's the people who were separated that had it the hardest.
[ a SUFFERING COMPETITION. being separated from his team really sucked, but so does dying without knowing for sure if you'll ever come back, he imagines.
[ poked... he shuts his eyes for a second, looking tired. haru has not moved on from rin moving away in elementary school. he is not going to move on from him dying suddenly and violently. ]
He doesn't get to decide things like that.
[ of course he missed his dumb ass. ]
You don't just move on because someone wants you to, anyway. Otherwise half of you would be easier to forget.
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a sort of exasperated chiding, ]
I've always been myself. Don't bully Rin. Don't kill people.
[ says haru who has a higher body count this game and also some fondness for rang, despite being a stinker. ]
...So you're okay?
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rang looks at haru, as if remembering the very last time he saw his face.]
...I am.
[he thinks about how only ylfa and haru have asked, which makes sense because rang is annoying to everyone else.]
I didn't feel anything at the end. And I got to see Matsui again as soon as I woke up.
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anyway rang is also annoying to haru but sometimes the people you deserve are annoying.
You were upset though. painless emotionally and painless physically are not really the same thing. ]
That's good. You're all acting stupid, so it seems okay. ...But it must've been hard.
[ even if they're safe, he doesn't like how any of them ended up there. ]
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I had everyone with me. [he will die angry that they got wiped in the first place, but] Even though I was furious, I'm not so blind that I can't see that I was also lucky.
It's the people who were separated that had it the hardest.
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[ a SUFFERING COMPETITION. being separated from his team really sucked, but so does dying without knowing for sure if you'll ever come back, he imagines.
though on this note, ]
Has Rin been okay?
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Sometimes. [wow] It was hard for him to watch all of you.
He asked me if I thought you'd be better off forgetting about him.
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also I lied I guess he can hear his thoughts and just accepts rang for being crazy. ]
...Why? When?
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[that was really months ago wow]
He said that it wasn't the first time he disappointed you.
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he just sighs. ]
...He irritates me. But that's not disappointment.
[ he's never been disappointed in rin ]
I don't know why he thinks that. [ it's because they don't communicate ]
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I asked, but he wouldn't tell me. [rin like get deets blocked, idiot.
he reaches out to poke haru again even though he can't even touch him,]
He couldn't decide whether or not he wanted you to miss him or to move on.
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He doesn't get to decide things like that.
[ of course he missed his dumb ass. ]
You don't just move on because someone wants you to, anyway. Otherwise half of you would be easier to forget.