[ it does feel like people should be angry. someone should be angry. but they have a small pack of survivors left, and most of them understand what has to happen here. it becomes a fight, of logic and emotion, and for haru it's usually the latter that wins out.
but maybe it's not the case for everyone. ]
I wasn't possessed. It's still a choice I made. But... Asuka made his choices too. [ he doesn't expect ryo even really cared. ] So did Matsuno, with his lies. It still... doesn't feel right.
[ his feelings really are just vague frustration haru and rin ended up in this situation. my feelings are bafflement that i fell asleep on top of this tag at some point yesterday. ]
It's not going to feel right because you still have morals and a conscience, Haru. That's a good thing. Guilt isn't a bad thing to feel, even when people are telling you you did it for the betterment of all of us, or the ends justify the means. That's the difference between you and somebody like Ryo. The most, I think, that you can do is just... learn to work with it. It's sometimes hard to accept that you've done these things, but it's not like they make up the entirety of who you are or change your whole personality.
[ which is why the feelings are also a little sympathetic and mostly just... a little relieved that haru does feel something about it at all. ]
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[ it does feel like people should be angry. someone should be angry. but they have a small pack of survivors left, and most of them understand what has to happen here. it becomes a fight, of logic and emotion, and for haru it's usually the latter that wins out.
but maybe it's not the case for everyone. ]
I wasn't possessed. It's still a choice I made. But... Asuka made his choices too. [ he doesn't expect ryo even really cared. ] So did Matsuno, with his lies. It still... doesn't feel right.
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It's not going to feel right because you still have morals and a conscience, Haru. That's a good thing. Guilt isn't a bad thing to feel, even when people are telling you you did it for the betterment of all of us, or the ends justify the means. That's the difference between you and somebody like Ryo. The most, I think, that you can do is just... learn to work with it. It's sometimes hard to accept that you've done these things, but it's not like they make up the entirety of who you are or change your whole personality.
[ which is why the feelings are also a little sympathetic and mostly just... a little relieved that haru does feel something about it at all. ]