[ the alex mantra of, it's fine (everything in the bg is exploding). anyway, his feelings can answer for him today: he feels directionless guilt, anger, and frustration in spades. big feelings. summatively, ]
[ the death part sucks, but at least it is reversible, yes. still, he lets out kind of a hopeless little laugh, just a soundless puff of air because he doesn't know how to express how he's feeling. ]
I just—I think... I don't know if I would be fine. If people voted for me, when there was an obvious culprit.
[ he just thinks that must feel really bad and not fine. ]
[ she does like ryo... but she also likes ryo enough to respect that he was probably mostly fine with this. but also yes, she did figure that out, so. ]
Think it's easier when people figure it out and ignore it? Or when they never figure it out?
[ superhells are all so normal about death. he thinks about that for a bit. ]
Maybe some people feel relieved to get away with it, but when it happened to me, it just felt like I was lying to everyone. Or like waiting to hurt us back, eventually.
Can I ask why you did it, then? Possession, or for an item? Or just for a good achievement?
... In the end I think any of those are good motivations, considering the consequences are as temporary as they are. That's why I also don't think it matters that much if you trick people or lie.
Realistically, how many people want to get revenge, here?
[ considering how long rosamund and totty lasted... ]
Probably not many, at least. Even Yoru has Asa stopping her most of the time. [ people feel emotions and things happen though. he's not looking to die, but he won't stop anyone from getting angry—it's just more likely that known killers get saved for safety votes or easy targets instead. then there's a pause, thoughtful and stormy. ] I wasn't possessed. I can get an item, but I was working with Rin and Astolfo to get as many achievements as we could think of. So that was our priority.
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Hey. Hooow are you feeling?
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...Not great. [ IT'S NOT GREAT ]
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Yeah, figured. It's almost over though. [ IS THIS THE BEST YOU CAN OFFER. ]
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I guess.
Doesn't make much different for Matsuno.
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But... that doesn't change that he's going to be fine.
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I just—I think... I don't know if I would be fine. If people voted for me, when there was an obvious culprit.
[ he just thinks that must feel really bad and not fine. ]
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Sure. Hypothetically. It can't feel good, but the situation is what it is.
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[ he'll just say it, though he feels badly for doing so to alex. since she might've been, like, one of his few fans. ]
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Think it's easier when people figure it out and ignore it? Or when they never figure it out?
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Maybe some people feel relieved to get away with it, but when it happened to me, it just felt like I was lying to everyone. Or like waiting to hurt us back, eventually.
[ so they're both not fun? ]
There's no good scenario. [ probably by design. ]
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... In the end I think any of those are good motivations, considering the consequences are as temporary as they are. That's why I also don't think it matters that much if you trick people or lie.
Realistically, how many people want to get revenge, here?
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Probably not many, at least. Even Yoru has Asa stopping her most of the time. [ people feel emotions and things happen though. he's not looking to die, but he won't stop anyone from getting angry—it's just more likely that known killers get saved for safety votes or easy targets instead. then there's a pause, thoughtful and stormy. ] I wasn't possessed. I can get an item, but I was working with Rin and Astolfo to get as many achievements as we could think of. So that was our priority.
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[ okay, yes, murdering should probably still be a bigger deal to her regardless. but. it just isn't... she can't really make it one... ]
You should get an item. If it happened, it happened, and you should drain as much good from it as possible.