Just take the credit. [ he's grumbling, but there's no heat to it. even his emotions have no real frustration—it's just really tired and really sad and a little stressed, here. ] It's not easy.
[ to try and contribute during these stupid trials. ]
[ Froggystyle is actually soft people and this is valid of them. ]
Not gonna lie to you. Already made my choice before he officially pointed the finger. I just don't bother puttin' in a vote 'til it looks solid, 'cause having to go back over and change it is a pain in the ass.
I think it does make it easier to have someone else say the things you can't out loud in your stead. Just gotta make sure you don't erase your own gut feelings to listen to them.
You still have the right to think and choose for yourself.
[ Aka don't let one single person turn it into a witch hunt, etc. ]
...But you're right. I wouldn't want to vote because someone else told me to. Not when we have to live with that decision. [ they have to choose who they're condemning to death, basically. ]
[ He's satisfied somewhat to hear that, at least. Some teens are more easily influenced than others, and Haru is just a normie combined with him losing his friend -- it's rough all around. ]
Good, that's what I like to hear -- for both ends.
If it helps to think about it this way, felt more like he was speaking on behalf of his team anyway.
[ Matsui was in no state to do the investigations himself. And also sometimes you just need that kind of unhinged 'runs around licking everything' energy to get shit done, good job Rang. ]
[ wolfwood gives off such gruff old coach vibes to him, giving him this off-hand validation. it sparks a little emotion: exasperation, but in a quietly fond way that he would never admit.
that bleeds quickly into sympathy, though. ]
Mm. Matsui wasn't in good shape to talk.
[ or to do like, anything? how many curses flew around this trial on top of his dark vortex of emotions? help. ]
Do you believe Libby? That it wasn't a strategic pick?
[ He doesn't elabourate, mostly because he doesn't know how to go beyond that. He's only known all of you a short while, and he's not sure how much he can say he understands a majority of you. ]
You don't need much time or understanding to like somebody. [ unfortunately. sometimes you just get attached and you're stuck with incomprehensible friends forever. ] What is it you do?
[ Suffer and deal with it except he won't say it out loud unless it comes up in just the right way. ]
What a way to tell the world that you don't got a whole lot of friends.
I travel from place to place and don't get to know people for long. A lot of 'em, I spend minutes with, maybe a day, and then I don't see 'em again. You don't make friends with temporary clients, especially when your next employer might have a bone to pick with 'em.
I don't have many friends. [ that's true and he doesn't mind saying as much. he has no added sadness today saying as much. actually, making more friends here has literally only led to heartache, so. ] ...But being on the move that much sounds hard.
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Just take the credit. [ he's grumbling, but there's no heat to it. even his emotions have no real frustration—it's just really tired and really sad and a little stressed, here. ] It's not easy.
[ to try and contribute during these stupid trials. ]
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It's just what people do to try to make reason out of the unknown.
Part of being human and all that.
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It's not easy to accuse someone of this, either.
[ he doesn't dislike libby. ]
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[ People weren't exactly slamming the Kill button on Sweet Theory he thinks, at least not until the very end. ]
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[ instead froggystyle let everyone panic until 9pm ]
Do you think it's cowardly? I don't know. It felt wrong to have Rang be the one to point fingers.
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Not gonna lie to you. Already made my choice before he officially pointed the finger. I just don't bother puttin' in a vote 'til it looks solid, 'cause having to go back over and change it is a pain in the ass.
I think it does make it easier to have someone else say the things you can't out loud in your stead. Just gotta make sure you don't erase your own gut feelings to listen to them.
You still have the right to think and choose for yourself.
[ Aka don't let one single person turn it into a witch hunt, etc. ]
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I don't feel obliged to listen to anyone.
[ said with airy, youthful confidence. ]
...But you're right. I wouldn't want to vote because someone else told me to. Not when we have to live with that decision. [ they have to choose who they're condemning to death, basically. ]
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Good, that's what I like to hear -- for both ends.
If it helps to think about it this way, felt more like he was speaking on behalf of his team anyway.
[ Matsui was in no state to do the investigations himself. And also sometimes you just need that kind of unhinged 'runs around licking everything' energy to get shit done, good job Rang. ]
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that bleeds quickly into sympathy, though. ]
Mm. Matsui wasn't in good shape to talk.
[ or to do like, anything? how many curses flew around this trial on top of his dark vortex of emotions? help. ]
Do you believe Libby? That it wasn't a strategic pick?
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It's hard to say. We've all only known each other for three weeks, that's not enough time to get a read on anybody.
In the end though, it's hard to deny that it wasn't a good pick from a strategic point.
[ And tomorrow... they're proven right by BDSM's tpk... ]
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Mm. It crossed my mind. A lot of people thought it.
[ which is terrible, and might also make him terrible, so there's a quiet wave of guilt here, but he tries not to linger. ]
You can get to know someone pretty fast, though.
[ to him three weeks seems like long enough to be close to someone? and he's not even that good at making friends. ]
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He lets the guilt pass without fanfare. He feels no such guilt himself, but hardly his place to tell anyone else off for it. ]
Guess it depends on what your definition of "knowing someone" is.
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What's yours?
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[ He doesn't elabourate, mostly because he doesn't know how to go beyond that. He's only known all of you a short while, and he's not sure how much he can say he understands a majority of you. ]
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Then again, there's Vash. ]
...Maybe, maybe not.
Think it's a good enough blanket statement though. Don't really make friends with what I do.
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[ You're in that little squad too Haru. ]
I thought I told you. I do odds and ends, whatever'll keep my wallet from letting me starve.
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I'm friends with most people I like. I don't like many people though. [ ... ] Why does that mean you don't make friends?
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What a way to tell the world that you don't got a whole lot of friends.
I travel from place to place and don't get to know people for long. A lot of 'em, I spend minutes with, maybe a day, and then I don't see 'em again. You don't make friends with temporary clients, especially when your next employer might have a bone to pick with 'em.
That's contract work for ya.
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[ Nor is he that invested in how many friends somebody else has got. If Haru feels fine about it, then that's all that matters. ]
It's what I'm used to. Better than being cooped up if you ask me. Matter of personal taste, but I think I'd just get restless.