he sighs out loudly, but doesn't have the desire or will to fight buzen on this. because he wants this to turn out okay too, even if it's felt so impossible for weeks. even if the pressure has ground them down to nibs. ]
...Ylfa and I have braced for the worst. But I know you've all been working hard too.
So I'll believe you. Don't put me in a position where I have to leave you or Matsui-san alone. Because I won't.
[ they just need to see this through together. nearly there. ]
I know. And during the hardest times in a mission, it's easiest to just prepare for the worst of it to come, because at least that way it doesn't take you by surprise. I'm still not sure how this thing with Ruby-san is going to turn out.
[he'll be realistic about it, even though a thought that comes through is i hope one of us kills her if it comes to that, your hands are bloody enough
but at the same time....]
But for other things... yeah. You can believe me. I wouldn't be getting your hopes up if I thought it'd be a cruel thing to do.
I want you to know that your hard work and every difficult moment... it hasn't been for nothing.
[ he still has to take a second to process sentiments he receives like this, like, i would mercy kill you because i care, i would kill to protect you, i'll murder this person so you don't have to, because it's simply not normal. but he's learned that these absolutely insane things are also gifts, warm in their own way. like... a cat bringing you a fresh, cooling rat?
the point is, it's A Lot, but he still appreciates it. he tries to relax some, nodding. ]
...Yeah. I want that to be true. The worst thing that could happen—is that this meant nothing.
[ all of their suffering, the things they've done. ruby can't reduce that to nothing. ]
Everyone's given up too much for that. Us. All of you. [ living and dead. ]
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he sighs out loudly, but doesn't have the desire or will to fight buzen on this. because he wants this to turn out okay too, even if it's felt so impossible for weeks. even if the pressure has ground them down to nibs. ]
...Ylfa and I have braced for the worst. But I know you've all been working hard too.
So I'll believe you. Don't put me in a position where I have to leave you or Matsui-san alone. Because I won't.
[ they just need to see this through together. nearly there. ]
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[he'll be realistic about it, even though a thought that comes through is i hope one of us kills her if it comes to that, your hands are bloody enough
but at the same time....]
But for other things... yeah. You can believe me. I wouldn't be getting your hopes up if I thought it'd be a cruel thing to do.
I want you to know that your hard work and every difficult moment... it hasn't been for nothing.
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the point is, it's A Lot, but he still appreciates it. he tries to relax some, nodding. ]
...Yeah. I want that to be true. The worst thing that could happen—is that this meant nothing.
[ all of their suffering, the things they've done. ruby can't reduce that to nothing. ]
Everyone's given up too much for that. Us. All of you. [ living and dead. ]